Wednesday, October 17, 2012

吵架

我不明白为什么
为什么我们好的时候会很好
翻脸的时候会很凶

今天 2012年10月18日,星期四
我们吵到一个地步就是
他翻了家里的椅子
还对着家里的玻璃门丢去
椅子也裂了一小块
还好玻璃没破
破了也不管我的事
因为丢东西的人是他不是我
他想一拳挥向我的脸
而我也毫无挂虑的直接顶撞他一句:
“有本事你就打!记得要打在我的脸!”
他举起他的手
想了一下就把手放下
因为他知道
只要他一下手
不管事情是谁对谁错
最终他还是错

你呢
你只下来
问什么情况
你不骂他,反而骂我
是我的错吗
就算是小事
你都说是小事
那为什么你还骂我!
你能不能不要让我这个女儿觉得在家里没有价值吗!
你知道
我哭不是因为我害怕
而是我感觉不到你对我的爱,对我的关怀

今天这事
我真的对你很失望
我已经对你死了心
我不会再渴望在你身上得到什么关爱
这已经不是第一次
或许对你来说这真的是小事
但这对我来说
一点也不小
我在这个家看不到爱
老爸还在时
或许还有
但现在完全感觉不到
我已经对你死了心
你让我感觉
我就是你的奴仆
而不是女儿


Friday, October 12, 2012

久违的部落格

木事木事~
我终于回来啦~
哦麦够~ 好多灰尘呐~ (⊙o⊙)!!!

* erhem~ back to normal -.-" *
well, i've been been so So SO LONG TIME disappear in my blog
now just saja-saja come here :P
the latest blog was at 3rd Aug..
is nearly 2 month i get lose..
get announce some news of me
first of all let's start with the GOOD NEWS
* wakakaka~ XD *
i've done with my two and half year diploma studies
which mean...
THERE IS NO MORE LECTURES FOR ME ANYMORE!
but...........
i got few "excellent" papers to resit :'(
and the WORST is..
each of them cost me RM350...
mean if i got 1 paper to got 
i have to pay RM350
if 2 papers
i have to pay RM700
3 papers RM1050...
RM1400......
RM1750.........
RM2100............
* this is one of the BAD NEWS.. wtmf expensive..! *

but i have 3 years so complete these few papers 
cause i don't think to continue my degree
* mayb after i work for several years or mayb part-time study *

haiz...

well,
now i'm working with my church for 3 months
"contract" will be untill this december
then next year will be a fresh year for me to get in the social
hope it be good to me
* as well to you who reading this :)  *
< i'm not that selfish kay, will wish u along :P >

about my job
key in powerpoint
prepare the songs
prepare for the camps
and bla bla bla
conclusion as
apa pun boleh buat
* but don't ask me to wash toilet PLEASE ..! *
2 weeks gona passed
actually is quite tiring for me
cause beside of my job
i have to "SERVE" my QUEEN - My Mum
help her this and that
sometimes really feel like:
"Hello i'm in my working hours, 
can you don't ask me to do things for you"
but is quite good to work at home too la..
can save petrol 
can adjust my working time
and... you know  :|

oh ya, almost forgot
i went BONANZA again in October
this time we gt 6 people with  73 plates of sushi
i ate atleast 10 plates of salmon
Happy Die Me
* but for sure is just that once :) *

ok, until here i stop
start feel lazy to continue...
byebyeee
* should be back after 11 November ba... hopefully :x *