吵架

我不明白为什么

为什么我们好的时候会很好

翻脸的时候会很凶

今天 2012年10月18日，星期四

我们吵到一个地步就是

他翻了家里的椅子

还对着家里的玻璃门丢去

椅子也裂了一小块

还好玻璃没破

破了也不管我的事

因为丢东西的人是他不是我

他想一拳挥向我的脸

而我也毫无挂虑的直接顶撞他一句：

“有本事你就打！记得要打在我的脸！”

他举起他的手

想了一下就把手放下

因为他知道

只要他一下手

不管事情是谁对谁错

最终他还是错

你呢

你只下来

问什么情况

你不骂他，反而骂我

是我的错吗

就算是小事

你都说是小事

那为什么你还骂我！

你能不能不要让我这个女儿觉得在家里没有价值吗！

你知道

我哭不是因为我害怕

而是我感觉不到你对我的爱，对我的关怀

今天这事

我真的对你很失望

我已经对你死了心

我不会再渴望在你身上得到什么关爱

这已经不是第一次

或许对你来说这真的是小事

但这对我来说

一点也不小

我在这个家看不到爱

老爸还在时

或许还有

但现在完全感觉不到

我已经对你死了心

你让我感觉

我就是你的奴仆

而不是女儿

久违的部落格

木事木事~

我终于回来啦~

哦麦够~ 好多灰尘呐~ (⊙o⊙)!!!

* erhem~ back to normal -.-" *

well, i've been been so So SO LONG TIME disappear in my blog

now just saja-saja come here :P
the latest blog was at 3rd Aug..

is nearly 2 month i get lose..
get announce some news of me

first of all let's start with the GOOD NEWS
* wakakaka~ XD *
i've done with my two and half year diploma studies
which mean...

THERE IS NO MORE LECTURES FOR ME ANYMORE!
but...........
i got few "excellent" papers to resit :'(

and the WORST is..
each of them cost me RM350...
mean if i got 1 paper to got 

i have to pay RM350
if 2 papers
i have to pay RM700

3 papers RM1050...

RM1400......

RM1750.........

RM2100............

* this is one of the BAD NEWS.. wtmf expensive..! *

but i have 3 years so complete these few papers 

cause i don't think to continue my degree
* mayb after i work for several years or mayb part-time study *

haiz...

well,

now i'm working with my church for 3 months

"contract" will be untill this december

then next year will be a fresh year for me to get in the social

hope it be good to me
* as well to you who reading this :)  *

< i'm not that selfish kay, will wish u along :P >

about my job

key in powerpoint

prepare the songs

prepare for the camps

and bla bla bla

conclusion as

apa pun boleh buat
* but don't ask me to wash toilet PLEASE ..! *

2 weeks gona passed

actually is quite tiring for me

cause beside of my job

i have to "SERVE" my QUEEN - My Mum

help her this and that

sometimes really feel like:

"Hello i'm in my working hours, 

can you don't ask me to do things for you"

but is quite good to work at home too la..

can save petrol 

can adjust my working time
and... you know  :|

oh ya, almost forgot

i went BONANZA again in October
this time we gt 6 people with  73 plates of sushi

i ate atleast 10 plates of salmon

Happy Die Me
* but for sure is just that once :) *

ok, until here i stop

start feel lazy to continue...

byebyeee

* should be back after 11 November ba... hopefully :x *

无题

.........♥  
.........♥                                                                 亲爱的你好吗...?
..........♥                                                                  看见你幸福
..............♥                                                            其实我也不懂
...................♥                                      自己应该为你开心还是为自己难过
..........................♥ 
...............................♥                                              开心是因为
.................................♥                                       我看见你的笑容
.................................♥                                         那傻傻的笑容
..............................♥                                  就是当初吸引我的地方
.........................♥                                       就是那股鼓励我的力量
..................♥ 
.............♥                                                               难过是因为
.....♥                                                                让你笑的人不是我
...♥                                                                  有那么点点的失落
.♥........♥....♥............♥....♥                                     有那么点点的....

♥......♥.........♥.......♥...........♥ 

.♥..................♥..♥................♥                   不过还是会祝福你幸福快乐
..♥...................♥..................♥                        我会把要给你的都收起

...♥....................................♥                   就把它藏在心里的一个深处吧
.....♥................................♥                     不会忘记，也不会特意地翻起
........♥.........................♥                                    就让它沉睡在那里
...........♥...................♥ 
..............♥..............♥                                           当然如果有一天
..................♥.......♥                                               你想把它唤醒
.....................♥..♥                                               它永远都在那里
.......................♥                                                   预备着这一天

这一切

还是交托给天上的爸爸

他自有他的意思

但我还是想说：

“ 我真的很喜欢你，谢谢你成为我生命里的过客 ” 

Double Attack.. Goodbye Ultragirl

im hoping this is the last last post for me

to write this thing...

Ultragirl leave us

i have no idea what to write here

is really heart broken this time

one just gone and come another more

Lord Father

are you trying to challenging us

why you take them away

can you stop this challenge from us

is so suffering

please stop it..

first week look :) ♥

eyes opened ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

full months celebration ♥♥♥

♥♥ our Princess ♥♥

Rest in Peace My Dear..
Don't have to worry about here..
Just Move On and Meet with Blackie and Sporttie

although is really sad

but if better than let you all suffering at here
take good care of yourself there..
Miss & Love you all  ♥

Love Aunt 

Goodbye Blackie T-T

can't believe that 

this post and the previous post 

are writing about the same thing

last month was Sporttie

and now is Blackie

we bring it to the doctor at the previous night

though that the injection that given may help

but at last

it was not

and still Blackie goes

maybe is better for him 

maybe...

when he was just join us this family... ♥

cute little one :) ♥

learn to sit properly :]

 

had their full month celebration

Rest in Peace Balckie

we gona miss you a lot

remember find Sporttie so that you both have partner

at least you see the world

at least you see me

gotta miss you much from now

guide us always together with Sporttie

Love you little one

forever and never last ♥

Love Aunt..

Goodbye Sporttie :'(

 this is really a sad post for me

8th June 2012

10:44pm

Sporttie leave us in sudden

although i know that it may go anytime

but just didn't think of that it will go so fast

Sporttie

the smallest size among the puppies

the noisiest puppy among them

and also the most weak one among them

 Rest in Peace my baby

although you didn't open your eyes

but at least you came to this family

at least you are one of us

at least i can be with you for sometime

maybe is better for you to go somewhere out there

which is no suffer and pain

be happy and guide us in heaven the wonderland

bless your brothers and sister

and so your aunt uncle and granny

Love Always

i'm gona miss you hardly this time

Love Aunt..

Grandma & Mama's Day ♡

erm well...

this is a very very late post

is should be post 3 weeks ago

but due to my dear laziness and exam was around the corner on that time

so now only i post it :p

hmm hmm where should i start..

lets see...

oh okayy.. :D

i was having my exam before Mother's Day

and only end at the next day after Mother's Day

really damn "fish" it 

but still i'm going back home for celebration ^^

p/s: thanks to my dear lynlyn Cheah

that willing to back  my home with me

and yet she get a huge meal for free XD

we went for seafood for the Mother's Day celebration

and we choose.. TB ♥

let photos tell the story

...............................

Granny & Sis

Mum, Granny & Sis

take one :)

again take two :D

dishes that we had

we got 

- cheng cao sweet potato leaves -

- gong bou hear gor bak -

- ang fish -

- fried sotong -

- sha bou taufu -

- fried oats prawn -

- delicious satay -

satisfy much much ♥

Cake that we bought from Pg
damn nice.. likessss ♥

Mum & Granny 

heart heart ♥♥♥

Family Photo

thanks to lynn

but your skill still have to improve more XD

the children with Mum & Granny ♥♥♥

♥♥♥ Mum & Grany ♥♥♥

our photographer 

Lynn Lynn Cheah :D

That's all for that :]

Love You, Mum & Granny


and the next day.. Law Paper
i'm death with it...  aikss