哭到最后

原来

我从来没有看都你的眼神

所以

我所付出的都还是没符合你的要求

当你生气的时候

我不闻不问的冷漠

藏起来哭过后的声音

以为

你会对我说

"你还好吗"

为什么在这个时候

你就不肯对我说一句安慰的话

你知道吗

我可以很清楚地听到自己的心在呐喊着痛

可是却得不到你的温柔

为什么你就是不肯对我说

宁愿否定我的脆弱

宁愿让我自己一个人难过

不过

这也好

至少让我明白

你不属于我

才知道

原来我从来都没有认识你的所有

才知道

原来

一直以来我只是压抑我的心痛

原来

一直以来

只有我让我的喜怒哀乐活在你的手中

你的

完全没有

现在

哭到最后

我还是要放手

因为

你不会再是属于我

哭到最后

原来

我从来没有看都你的眼神

所以

我所付出的都还是没符合你的要求

当你生气的时候

我不闻不问的冷漠

藏起来哭过后的声音

以为

你会对我说

"你还好吗"

为什么在这个时候

你就不肯对我说一句安慰的话

你知道吗

我可以很清楚地听到自己的心在呐喊着痛

可是却得不到你的温柔

为什么你就是不肯对我说

宁愿否定我的脆弱

宁愿让我自己一个人难过

不过

这也好

至少让我明白

你不属于我

才知道

原来我从来都没有认识你的所有

才知道

原来

一直以来我只是压抑我的心痛

原来

一直以来

只有我让我的喜怒哀乐活在你的手中

你的

完全没有

现在

哭到最后

我还是要放手

因为

你不会再是属于我

A Song - Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T'was Grace that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares...
we have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.

When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

i heard this song when i was working in the book fair

firstly few times i was trying to ignore it

but until the end i still can't do it

it keep reminding me about YOU

it keep reminding me the days we had

it keep reminding me the day YOU go

it keep reminding me that YOU leaved us

Daddy, I Miss YOU :'[

I miss you hardly right now

I cried, because I Miss YOU

I cried, because I didn't cherish the time we had

i cried, because i didn't tell you that how much I LOVE YOU

until now

i have no chances more to tell..

Daddy.. i wish YOU're here with me... :'[

is 29th Feb :3

is 29th Feb 2012

it is also a memorable day for me

i hang out with my BFE -best friend ever- again 

it's been a long time we didn't hang out after the previous date

but NEVERMIND

because it wont affect our friendship

my class was until 4 something 

but due to her class which always finish at sharp 5 or even late more

i'll just wait her at college :3

and i also decided to drive to college on the day 

so that transport won't be the problem for us 

thanks God the rain is not heavy on the day

and both of us sitting in the car and start decide where to go

for my safety

she decide to go back Butterworth with me so i won't get lost 

* touch-ed  >_<~ *

i don't hate Penang but the Komtar's area  @@"

so i fetch her to her new hostel 

and wait her for bath and pack 

then only we go for our dinner

dinner of the day is my favourite -SushiKing- ♥_♥!

she was just so happy when i said:

" i can help you to eat the rice of the salmon set "

and i can see how miserable i will be next   :x

and so we chat about many things

-sad things-happy things-funny things-weird things-

and more More MORE :D

after dinner 

we go for some "exercises" - shopping :B -

but actually we don't shop a lot but staying in a shop for a long time :b

firstly we were just only want to looking for purse

but at the end we bought watches XD

and this is the reason why we staying in there for so long

1 watch = 18.90

2 watches = 25

3 watches = 35

so as a Si Kedekut  -me- :b

i decide to buy 3 for 35

and so i keep asking her to buy one 

Tapi...

the main purpose is 

i wish i can have a SAME watch with her

but too bad that every watch that we Like is only left ONE -.-"

the every watch that have 2 we DISLIKE

until the end 

we still bought watches  XD

but i'm satisfy with the watches that i buy

one i decide to give to mum cause i have only 2 hands to wear watch

impossible that i wear both on the same time, right? 

another one i'll just keep it myself

and found out that it has her nickname on it - Bobo -   :]

and finally we bought and went back home

*she bought a white Shining watch  ^-^*

For Me

i feel great at all in every time we meet

especially when the time is only belongs to BOTH of US

although 

we do not study in the same course

we do not meet always

we do not contact always

but i know

in our heart 

there is always a place that remain for each other

and that is why when every time we meet

we can be like those who meet everyday

for Me, You're the BEST

and i wish

for You, I'm same to be :]  ♥

Love & Miss You, Bobo ♥_♥!

* i can't imagine when you go to Malacca how i'm gona be :'[ *

* Untitled *

just know that i love you more than i expected

but Thanks God 

that i'm still able 

to stand in front of you

to chat with you

honestly

i don't know why i am still waiting

i know is impossible

but here i am still waiting for the miracle

funny right

anyway

please stay happy

you know

when you feel sad

i'll be the one who feel that too

L. & M. A.   ♥

* 不是故意 *

我以为恶梦不会一直缠着我

我以为头痛闭上眼就痊愈了

我只听你爱听的歌

我只做你的朋友

我变得沉默伤心也不愿开口

我变了好多是否更靠近你呢

等一个固执的如果

如果你懂我为什么

就够了

你别担心

我不怕一个人站在雨里

除了你

我找不到能快乐的意义

眼泪

带给你的压力太清晰

我真的不是故意

不是故意

让自己变得不再像自己

为了你

拼命想拿一百分而努力

你

却离我越来越远的距离

直到我失去你

真的不是故意...

Emo-ing

My Dear

did you know that

until now

I am still not able to let you go

I am still looking for a HOPE

that you would come to me

I am still believing that is still a chance between us

you must be thinking how stupid am I right

but I just can't let it go

it's meant to me

it's reminding how happy those moments been

it refreshing my mind every moments that we spend before

but the truth is the truth

beside it change

looking forward o someday

that we could be together

or

I can stand in front of you and say

be Happy with her

just stupid emo-ing :'[