想要...

曾经...想要荣华富贵的生活...
曾经...想要环游世界每个的角落...
曾经...有好多的曾经...

但现在...我都不想要了...
我只想要一个健健康康的家...
过着平凡不愁的日子就好...

或许...有的人会问...
为什么不继续追求这些曾经...
为什么放弃这一些的曾经...

不...我不会放弃这些...
但现在...现在我只想过的简单些...
简单得来又快乐...
简单得来又不愁...
简单得来又健康...

想要健康...
健康很重要...
因为这样我才觉悟...
再多的荣华富贵...
也不比健康重要...
健康真的很重要...
没有了它...就没有了一切你知道吗...

我尝试着去学习面对现实的一切...
但是还是失败...
跌倒又爬起...爬起又跌倒...
直到现在...我还是在跌跌撞撞的状态...

但...更想要的是...
想要...坚定我对你的依赖...
像回到以前的自己...
对你的依赖...对你的信心...
我毫无犹豫...
可是现在...现在却开始怀疑...
怀疑你是否真的存在...
偶尔...自己会很肯定的相信...
偶尔...却又不自觉地离开你...
带领我回到你的怀中好吗...
我相信你会把我带回家对吧...
我已经不知该往何去了...
把我带回去好吗...
我不喜欢现在的...
我想回到对你坚定不移的脚步...
我想回到有你爱充满的生活...
不需忧虑...不需难过...
只需相信...依靠...
即使风浪再大...也不惧怕...
因为有你一直伴着我...
就是这样的生活...
有个依靠的归宿...

让我飞得比这幽谷还高...
让我飞过这幽谷....
让我飞回你的怀抱...那永远的依靠...

我不求多...
只求你坚定我对你的依靠...和赐我们一家平安健康...

让我的心永远向你...

MY GPS - DAY ONE :]

今天是早上5:24...
被吓醒~ ><
冲冲忙忙的准备自己(只能怪自己前晚那么迟还去吃宵夜...活该 ><~)
然后就去买了超全点心早餐~
唔~好吃好吃~ ><~
*说到吃我就会讲不停了...要改要改~~~
早上6:15集合但竟然等到大概7点才出发~真的是热到~~
*本小姐是易流汗的人~
不要紧~
有出发好过没出发对不对,对不对,对不对~ 哈哈
可是...
进大桥之前塞车到像什么酱~~
只能说...路上满满都是车...
还好大桥不会塞...
结果不到五分钟,就睡着了嘞 *羞羞*
过后就到基督徒灵修所-C.C.C.了咯~
*不然你还想会在哪里噢？呵呵
之后之后...当然是报到啦...
每个营会都是酱的嘛~
然后就领了一本"瘦瘦"+扇不到大风的手册和一件蛮漂亮的紫色营衣~ *喜欢喜欢*
可是可是...
我没得睡DOOM2也... T^T　
那是我的风水位～～～呜呜呜～
然后就是去拿我去C.C.C.最讨厌的东西-床单和枕头带
*Uncle啊~几百年了哦..换颜色啦
接着当然是收拾"我的"床咯...
把它装饰成像5Star Hotel,自己睡在上面也会爽嘛...
收拾完了在房间慢慢摸~摸东摸西,摸到连聚会都迟到　
是第一堂聚会也,不过还好只是敬拜赞美啦...
但也不可以迟到嘛,对不对,对不对..? 呵呵
过后就开始第一堂信息...
首先呢...
玩些小游戏－小蜜蜂
我的反应蛮快的也~才被抓到一次
*自夸中,别介意　
还有游戏吗？我不太记得了
*人老了嘛，体谅体谅下啦~
然后就吃午饭啊接着继续"上课"咯~
在Johari Window的课让我印象深刻的有几个句子~
@ 一个愿意公开自己隐私的人,你的潜能就会慢慢的被开发,但公开的也要是他人能接受的.
@ 在自己的盲点减少时,潜能就会慢慢的增加.
在塑料瓶的游戏中,我所学习到的是,
不管在什么事情或事物上
我们都可以以创意的方面来突破原有的
之后呢~
就是赞美别人的环节
像讲员所说的
赞美别人你不会亏钱,赞美别人也不会让你少块肉
它不但没有如此反而还会带给双方的快乐
甚至是给于对方的鼓励或推动力
但是偏偏,我们就是不喜欢,不常常赞美别人
但却又希望别人来赞美我们.　
*矛盾吧~
此外,当我们在赞美别人的同时,我们也是在赞美我的上帝
因为你所赞美的,都是他所造的.　
接下来就是爱的游戏
在这游戏中,学习到的是我们应该像耶稣这样,
用牺牲的爱来爱我们周围的人
不要以别人的外表或是你与对方之间的认识度来传出你想给的爱意
而且,当你给出的爱意少过对方想给你的时,真的是内疚到~~~~~~~
我不知道要怎么讲　><~　
＃当发现你愿意给我最高的爱意时,真的是非常谢谢你,只可惜因为一些的"困扰",所以没对到,不过过后我有把最高的给你咯...!呵呵~
这也让我学到了
爱要勇敢把握
因为我们不知道,我们无法确认
当你错过了这次机会
在未来,是否还有如此的机会
所以我会好好考虑的...
*当然你们也要哦！
过后就是晚饭啦~　
*吃饱饱~~~呼呼~~
晚上呢...就有“星星之火”的环节
这个环节中自己所学到的就是团结和坚定的心
但分享后发现
原来在其中
我忽略了聆听他人的意见　
*小妹在此说声抱歉,我会主意的~ ><~~　
游戏结束就等于厕所饱满的时候啦~
大家都争着要洗澡
*还好手脚快~呵呵
说到这...
我的吹风筒就好像一件宝物酱~
如果借一分钟收一元都赚爆咯~ 哇咔咔~
最后
就是今天我最爱的环节－有心聆听
在这环节中
很感谢神,他把我放在这组里头
刚开始,也许大家彼此都陌生
但在这环节里,却好像几十年的朋友
大家都愿意打开心里那封闭的角落,分享出来
虽然有哭...但我们也有笑对不对~ ^^
我相信在接下来的两天
我们的默契&团结一定会加深！
也要感谢上帝的是,他让我今天
能够解放那封闭的自己！
谢谢你，爱我的上帝！
期待明天的到来~~ :]

Tears Drop

24 November 2010
the first result day of her college's life
and yet
she failed
she failed her Microeconomic paper
and she though she will be strong enough to face the truth
but she didn't
when she meet her lecturer
she cried
tears drop from her eyes
can't stop
she was so upset
she feel that she's the most stupid person in the world
but thanks God
she has a friendly kind lecturer
he helps she
he give her the hope
he give comfort to her
then only she calm down a bit
lecturer told her will give her the answer in today
and so she just have to wait
she went wandering
sitting inside the public transport
thinking herself
asking herself
why this will happen
and the only answer she can found is
she didn't not prepared herself well
is truth
this is the truth
beside this reason
she can't accept others
wandering at outside few hours
then only she went home
although is sad
but she still carry the hope
unfortunately
the last hope did not achieve
she have to face the truth
and she try to
but she is not tough as before
she is weak
she is fragile
she don't know what she need to do
until now
she writing her blog
but she is still crying
she know she have to resit the paper
she know she have to face the truth
but now
she is just too weak for that
but
she is very lucky to have a nice lecturer in this subject
he willing to helps her
Thanks God for that!!!
and Thanks to her lecturer


she will start to be strong again
because she doesn't want anyone who care about her be worry
so she will be the one who strong enough to face everything in the future
Lucks for her-Cayley

剪刀

我哭了
只是一把剪刀
但我哭了

从小不懂为什么就是害怕剪刀
直到现在也还是如此
*还真没用*

刚刚弟弟拿着剪刀在我的后方
因为知道了所以故装没舍
怎知不懂怎样
那剪刀就这样钩到我的头发
我傻了
直接喊他
骂完了
我哭了
我真的很害怕剪刀
如果那一刻一不小心
头发被剪了是没怎样
但如果剪刀刺到头我
该怎么办
我一直忍着不哭
可是
不能了
眼泪还是情不自禁地流了

剪刀
其实它不可怕
但不懂为什么
我对它的抗拒就是这样
只要看见那剪刀的方式不对
我会先闪一边然后再骂人

剪刀
虽然看起来不怎样
但一不小心
它会成为悲剧的凶器
所以
请小心使用
拜托！！！


Cayley cy.

Actually what's is that feeling..?

I don't know what's that feeling is
love or like or what else
* whatever

but I know I like to chat with YOU
is so relaxed
no worries and only bully
* Laught Out Loud :D


I know YOU are busy
BUT
I'm still like to disturb YOU
* Hope YOU won't mind it

well
today YOU asked something from me
* which is sensitive to a female
but I'm okay with it because is YOU

and thanks for asking
because YOU made chance for me
to talk what is inside my mind actually

YES
that's my mind, my viewpoints
I prefer get the one I love
But not the one who loves me

and I hate YOU keep saying that I interest with him
* YOUR friend
I admit that he is handsome
but I won't admit I'm interested with him
CAUSE I'M NOT
and I prefer to interest with YOU
* get my point?

but don't ask me why
cause I don't know
that's why I said that to YOU

I'm confuse with that feeling
We suppose to be like brother and sister
but I feel like sometimes I wish to over it
over this limits

maybe I should make up myself with this mess
But if it has the chance
I will try it
cause YOU are really a GOOD B.


Cαγζεγ ♥

Thanks to YOU all ♥

I was so ♥ HAPPY ♥ on Yesterday
*My Big Day ♥

Thanks to YOU all wishing me HAPPY BIRTHDAY
really appreciate it ♥


I got a list here ♥:

through Sms
31st August 2010

♥ 2208 Jyuevo [my best friend ever ♥]

1st September 2010

♥ 1205 GuoXuan [2010 YouthClub Vice President]
♥ 1213 Vivian [my primary schood classmate]
♥ 1222 YokeLing [College classmate]
♥ 1232 Celine Tan [ex-dar]
♥ 1238 Jiaying [my cousin]
♥ 0612 Jyuevon again
♥ 0748 T.JiaJie [YouthClub teacher]
♥ 0822 TzeYi [cousin's friend]
♥ 1323 ShaoZi [my cousin]
♥ 1328 ShiLin Ang [primary school friend]
♥ 1411 LerkChieh [YouthCamp group mate]
♥ 1412 ChewLooi [primary school classmate]
♥ 1909 UuJeen [BB friend]
♥ 1955 TingEn [YouthClub friend]
♥ 2119 ShyYang [secondary school classmate]
♥ 2156 Ken Leong [Didi from Ipoh]


through Phonecall

1st September 2010

♥ MooiKian & Chai Luan [Taipeng's friend]


through Msn

1st September 2010

♥ Joe [Church member + "SweetHeart"]
♥ Joshua Tan [XiuFa ^^]


through Facebook

1st September 2010

♥ LipJinn [primary school classmate]
♥ Yanmay [YouthCamp group mate]
♥ Hafis [secondary school friend]
♥ Winnie Yuky
♥ HungHung [primary+secondary school friend]
♥ BeiBei [James Didi's girlfriend]
♥ YanLing [primary+secondary school friend]
♥ Wai Yeap
♥ Panda Ching
♥ Jerry Chan [primary school classmate]
♥ Nadia [College classmate + darling]
♥ Iris Choo
♥ Winnie [Primary school junior]
♥ YiErn [College classmate]
♥ Giarhu [working friend]
♥ YeeYong
♥ Leong Khoon [secondary school classmate]
♥ Hui Shin
♥ Jing Xian [YiShengCamp friend]
♥ Siok Fun Sotong [College classmate]
♥ C'j Aaron
♥ JieRu [secondary school BEST monitor]
♥ Wayzun
♥ Gwen [friend]
♥ Jiaying [my cousin]
♥ Janet [Collehe classmate]
♥ Chloe
♥ Genn Lai
♥ SiWei [primary school classmate]
♥ Noris [sister]
♥ Tommy Lim
♥ Ong Ting
♥ Jerry Tee
♥ EiLynn [My Lovely Lala]
♥ WooiLing [secondary school classmate]
♥ Xiao C Han [secondary school junior]
♥ YiWei [secondary school classmate]
♥ Joshua Chan [friend]
♥ Luby Loo [secondary school friend]
♥ June Ang [College friend]
♥ Cindy Khek
♥ Winson Choo
♥ Eric Lim TiekEng ["uncle"]
♥ Ann Lee [Church member]
♥ LiShien [secondary scool classmate]
♥ Ah Bao [College classmate]
♥ Jack Ang [secondary school friend]
♥ Loo ZhenZi
♥ ChongXian Ooi
♥ Pinkky Keoh
♥ T.HoiLeng [teacher]
♥ WanPing [College classmate]
♥ JiaHui
♥ Edlyn [YouthCamp friend]
♥ Ming Hui [YiShengCamp friend]
♥ Lerk Shin [YouthCamp friend]
♥ Esmond [YouthCamp friend]
♥ Catherine Mah [Church member]
♥ Tun Wei [secondary school friend]
♥ Chong Hong [YiShengCamp friend]
♥ David Lim [secondary school senior]
♥ Priscilla Lim [Church member]
♥ QiaHua [BibleCamp friend]
♥ KekShin [secondary school classmate]
♥ XuanCheng [primary school classmate]
♥ XueChing [primary+secondary school friend]
♥ KahQuan [primary school classmate]
♥ Yuyu Chia
♥ Danny Moh [secondary school junior]
♥ Winnie Thoe
♥ David Yew [Didi + Church member]
♥ Orange [Didi's friend]
♥ KahYin [Si Keropok >_<]
♥ TzeLing Tan [primary school classmate]
♥ Steven [Church member]
♥ Shirley [secondary school friend]
♥ Sunny [College friend]
♥ HuiYen [College classmate]
♥ ChaiTeng [secondary school classmate]
♥ HooiZai [College classmate]
♥ Phyeon [Pig ahMui]
♥ KhangSheng Chin
♥ Naomi [Church member]
♥ Carter Low [primary school classmate]
♥ Teng Tong Kwang
♥ Cherry [BigAng]
♥ Yoki
♥ David Mah [2010 YouthClub president]
♥ Joe [Church member + "SweetHeart"]
♥ Coral Lim
♥ YokeLing [College classmate]
♥ CheeMing [secondary school friend]
♥ Joshi [friend]
♥ Bilsernt Tan
♥ James [handsome Didi]
♥ Xiang Hui
♥ Eric Peh [cousin]
♥ Rita [YouthCamp friend]
♥ ZiIng [BB friend]
♥ Chromium
♥ June Tze Ng [BB friend]
♥ Dini [friend]
♥ Vincent
♥ Cindy Tan [JT's sister]
♥ Tracy Tan [cousin]
♥ Shaphy [YouthCamp group mate]
♥ Chong Jen [friend]
♥ Jeannie [YouthCamp groupmate]
♥ ChewYing [secondary school friend]
♥ Abunai Usagi [secondary school friend]
♥ Eling Ang [the girl who same birthday with ME ♥]
♥ Yvon WenWen [friend]
♥ Peieris [secondary school friend]
♥ Chey SinYan
♥ Kelvin Chee [YiShengCamp friend]
♥ Milks Sim [College classmate]
♥ Eric Hwak
♥ Daryl Lee
♥ Wei Hao [friend]
♥ Wei Hong [YiShengCamp friend]
♥ Grace Tan [Church member]
♥ HanZhong [secondary school friend]
♥ JingPhei [primary+secondary school friend]
♥ Carol Lim [friend]
♥ Yuhong
♥ Fanny [FamilyCamp friend]
♥ Ken Leong [Didi from Ipoh again]
♥ Sylvia [cousin]
♥ Cheewei
♥ Ronnie
♥ JieYing [secondary school senior]
♥ Andy Ooi


*Thanks to all my College classmate who sang HappyBirthday to me ♥
I get Your wishes ♥
Thanks a lot ♥ ♥ ♥

Again
Thanks a lot to YOU all ♥ ♥ ♥

From Cayley ♥
LOve YOu all!

♥ Double movie on my Big Day ♥

Yesterday [1st September 2010]
after class I went for movie
at Sunway Carnival
with my eldest sister, Sally Sotong & JT


first movie start at 7.50pm
watched it with sister and sotong
guess which movie is it..?

is
actually quite disappointed with that movie
I though I will be laugh like a crazy girl
but NOT and I felt SLEEPY with it

Suppose to be a funny movie what
but I don't know why I felt that

well
is okay ^^

Luckily ♥ ♥ ♥

the next movie is GOOD ♥
hahaa ♥
second movie is
started at 9.55pm
I had it with JT
and is Funny ♥
and and and
I like the kids
they look so handsome ♥ ♥ ♥
LOve them ♥


this is the first time I had TWO movie in one day
and it's just between 4 hours ^^
felt GREAT ♥
ahaa ♥ ♥ ♥

* End *