三年了

2014年8月2日

三年了

您离开三年了

日子过的真快

想问您好吗

想问您在那过得好吗

爸，您好吗

我已经踏入社会啦

已经满一年了

您看到了吗

您看到您的女儿进入这社会了吗

您看到您的女儿现在的样子吗

她长大啦

她不再为那些花花绿绿谈谈爱爱的事情

哭得没心没肺了

现在她只为您一个人流泪了

她很自责 很内疚

她很恨自己当初没有好好珍惜

她恨自己为什么生在福中不知福

她恨自己为什么那么不懂事

但她知道您很爱她

很爱很爱她

她会坚强 会再让那美丽的嘴角上扬

她会的 她做得到

因为她知道您爱她

以后流下的不再是悲伤的眼泪

而是因您为傲的眼泪

 

我以为

我以为…

自己不再对你留念

我以为…

自己已经把手松开

我以为…

自己已经把你淡忘

我以为…

自己可以坦然面对

我以为… 我都以为…

但我错了… 

我没有淡忘之间的过去

我没有停止对你的回忆

我没有放下对你的爱意

原来这阵子我所以为的一切

都没过去

别对我好

我害怕 也不想再承受

那心如刀割的痛苦

别对我那么好 

对我越好 我会陷得越深

别再对我那么好

因为我害怕

那颗爱你的心会再回来… 

如果真的属于我

祂不会让你身边陪伴着她 

那一场梦

不懂为什么自己记得这场梦的一小段

惊醒后

发现只是一场梦后

竟然喘了个大气

幸亏它只是一场梦

不知故事怎么开始

我和家人碰面了

海啸就突然来袭

大家都赶紧往水面跑

（我也不明白为什么是往水面而不是高处）

就这样我刚和家人碰到面

就被整大群的人挤到水面

就和家人分散了

就这样

突然不知为什么水面上漂浮了很多一瓶瓶的Sticky糖

大家就一直在抢

（当然我也是其中之一）

然后又不知道在什么情况下

我开始寻找家人的背影

周围的人都一个个和家人团圆

只有我一直找不到

我哭了

开始害怕了

忽然就有个熟悉的身影走来

是二姐

原来她也在找我们

可是我还看不到其他的家人

又哭了

然后走着走着

看到了他们

平安无事的

就醒了

我还记得我醒过来的那一刻

第一时间就是看看家人们

是否真的还活着

很庆幸

那只是一场梦

原来

到最后自己最在乎的还是家人

我会努力的去学习更加珍惜你们

不要等到失去了，才来痛哭

给一个不常见面的好朋友

久而久之
我们认识彼此也数年了
虽然这几年大家都稍微有改变
但很开心的事就是那份友谊
一直存在
没有改变
或许在外人的眼里
我们之间的友谊会变淡
但其实他们并不知道
这份无比的友谊一直都那么坚定不移
我们比一般的友谊坚定
虽然不常联络
不常见面
但是那份心一直都没变
偶尔
出来见个面
喝点茶
聊聊天
这反而让我更懂得珍惜你
我知道这一路以来
你一直都被我欺负
但是你知道吗
我只对你这样嘞
别人要都没有
所以你要好好珍惜 呵呵
谢谢你愿意与我分享你的心事
谢谢你没有讨厌我欺负你
谢谢你愿意做我的知心好朋友

两个完美主义的处女座
却不一样个性的人可以成为好朋友
这算是缘分吗？
珍惜你我这特别的友谊〜 爱你 宋猪猪！ XD
有人看了上面这一句会想打我吧〜 :P
不要紧〜 还是一样爱你！^_^

Random Post

Well is my 21st Valetine's Day
As the same still and available
Just a different which is I own my first self pay phone
Although is just a second hand phone but I'm already very happy with that
But mum seem doesn't feel happy with it
Never mind
She will accept it someday
*hope so :x*




-My Apple-

倒霉的除夕早晨

有一些债是别人看是债

但是其实它不是

但是有一些人就是偏偏在你还完应该还的时

才来跟你说“哎哟，这一些我还没算，上次忘记了...”

小姐！

又是你一直在那边说不要欠债过年

可是这里last minute才来说这一些你还没算

你他妈的！你这样跟要我欠债过年有什么分别

我的工资都拿去还债还到七七八八了
（虽然不是很多，但是预算来是刚刚好的）

你分明是要整我而已吧！
去你他妈的！

昨晚吃个饭已经很不爽了

现在七早八早还来这样的东西

真的是NMPKCBLJGL!

根本没mood过年！

- The Girl. The Lady. The Auntie. -

 deng! Deng! DEng! DENG!!! 

- The Girl. The Lady. The Auntie. -

p/s:
1. I know the older looks younger =/

2. early wishes to all readers, " Merry Christmas "

3. Happy Birthday Jesus Christ =)

" actually this blog i'm just gona write about a dinner only 
nothing related to the title =/ "

it was 8th Dec 2012, 

people are out for Saturday's Night 

and so I do =)

had a Great Huge Dinner with Eldest Sis & HL Sis

at TAO BUFFET TIME SQUARE PENANG

*  slurrrrrrrp......! fuyooh~ *

for those who went to Auto City's TAO Buffet before

here to tell you

TAO BUFFET TIME SQUARE PENANG

is BETTER!!! =)

and then the " food war " begin 
* muahahahaha!!! *

best present for the Cheesy Lovers
CHEESY
Oyster                                    Scallops

super Super DELICIOUS!!!

Prawn, Sausage, IceFish, Lamb Stick, Mushroom
in Teriyaki Style

* Yummy to the MAX!!! *

and of course 

- SASHIMI -
my favorite always =)

they provide unlimited Marshmallow & Chocolate Topping
Weee weee weeeeeee =B

we reached there around 7:30pm something 
and "end it up" around 10pm
many choices in there
and they decoration are just so cute and classic

felt lazy now...
- Byeeeee =) -

p/s: Do have a try if you have the chance ;P

Remind Me of You

the shot from the side

the eyes that I missing for so long

I found it at there

the similar movement

the similar smile

I miss it so much..

How long did we didn't meet up

how long did we didn't talk to each other

Hope everything could turn back into the very first meet of us...
MY.. <3 i="i">

吵架

我不明白为什么

为什么我们好的时候会很好

翻脸的时候会很凶

今天 2012年10月18日，星期四

我们吵到一个地步就是

他翻了家里的椅子

还对着家里的玻璃门丢去

椅子也裂了一小块

还好玻璃没破

破了也不管我的事

因为丢东西的人是他不是我

他想一拳挥向我的脸

而我也毫无挂虑的直接顶撞他一句：

“有本事你就打！记得要打在我的脸！”

他举起他的手

想了一下就把手放下

因为他知道

只要他一下手

不管事情是谁对谁错

最终他还是错

你呢

你只下来

问什么情况

你不骂他，反而骂我

是我的错吗

就算是小事

你都说是小事

那为什么你还骂我！

你能不能不要让我这个女儿觉得在家里没有价值吗！

你知道

我哭不是因为我害怕

而是我感觉不到你对我的爱，对我的关怀

今天这事

我真的对你很失望

我已经对你死了心

我不会再渴望在你身上得到什么关爱

这已经不是第一次

或许对你来说这真的是小事

但这对我来说

一点也不小

我在这个家看不到爱

老爸还在时

或许还有

但现在完全感觉不到

我已经对你死了心

你让我感觉

我就是你的奴仆

而不是女儿

久违的部落格

木事木事~

我终于回来啦~

哦麦够~ 好多灰尘呐~ (⊙o⊙)!!!

* erhem~ back to normal -.-" *

well, i've been been so So SO LONG TIME disappear in my blog

now just saja-saja come here :P
the latest blog was at 3rd Aug..

is nearly 2 month i get lose..
get announce some news of me

first of all let's start with the GOOD NEWS
* wakakaka~ XD *
i've done with my two and half year diploma studies
which mean...

THERE IS NO MORE LECTURES FOR ME ANYMORE!
but...........
i got few "excellent" papers to resit :'(

and the WORST is..
each of them cost me RM350...
mean if i got 1 paper to got 

i have to pay RM350
if 2 papers
i have to pay RM700

3 papers RM1050...

RM1400......

RM1750.........

RM2100............

* this is one of the BAD NEWS.. wtmf expensive..! *

but i have 3 years so complete these few papers 

cause i don't think to continue my degree
* mayb after i work for several years or mayb part-time study *

haiz...

well,

now i'm working with my church for 3 months

"contract" will be untill this december

then next year will be a fresh year for me to get in the social

hope it be good to me
* as well to you who reading this :)  *

< i'm not that selfish kay, will wish u along :P >

about my job

key in powerpoint

prepare the songs

prepare for the camps

and bla bla bla

conclusion as

apa pun boleh buat
* but don't ask me to wash toilet PLEASE ..! *

2 weeks gona passed

actually is quite tiring for me

cause beside of my job

i have to "SERVE" my QUEEN - My Mum

help her this and that

sometimes really feel like:

"Hello i'm in my working hours, 

can you don't ask me to do things for you"

but is quite good to work at home too la..

can save petrol 

can adjust my working time
and... you know  :|

oh ya, almost forgot

i went BONANZA again in October
this time we gt 6 people with  73 plates of sushi

i ate atleast 10 plates of salmon

Happy Die Me
* but for sure is just that once :) *

ok, until here i stop

start feel lazy to continue...

byebyeee

* should be back after 11 November ba... hopefully :x *

无题

.........♥  
.........♥                                                                 亲爱的你好吗...?
..........♥                                                                  看见你幸福
..............♥                                                            其实我也不懂
...................♥                                      自己应该为你开心还是为自己难过
..........................♥ 
...............................♥                                              开心是因为
.................................♥                                       我看见你的笑容
.................................♥                                         那傻傻的笑容
..............................♥                                  就是当初吸引我的地方
.........................♥                                       就是那股鼓励我的力量
..................♥ 
.............♥                                                               难过是因为
.....♥                                                                让你笑的人不是我
...♥                                                                  有那么点点的失落
.♥........♥....♥............♥....♥                                     有那么点点的....

♥......♥.........♥.......♥...........♥ 

.♥..................♥..♥................♥                   不过还是会祝福你幸福快乐
..♥...................♥..................♥                        我会把要给你的都收起

...♥....................................♥                   就把它藏在心里的一个深处吧
.....♥................................♥                     不会忘记，也不会特意地翻起
........♥.........................♥                                    就让它沉睡在那里
...........♥...................♥ 
..............♥..............♥                                           当然如果有一天
..................♥.......♥                                               你想把它唤醒
.....................♥..♥                                               它永远都在那里
.......................♥                                                   预备着这一天

这一切

还是交托给天上的爸爸

他自有他的意思

但我还是想说：

“ 我真的很喜欢你，谢谢你成为我生命里的过客 ” 

Double Attack.. Goodbye Ultragirl

im hoping this is the last last post for me

to write this thing...

Ultragirl leave us

i have no idea what to write here

is really heart broken this time

one just gone and come another more

Lord Father

are you trying to challenging us

why you take them away

can you stop this challenge from us

is so suffering

please stop it..

first week look :) ♥

eyes opened ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

full months celebration ♥♥♥

♥♥ our Princess ♥♥

Rest in Peace My Dear..
Don't have to worry about here..
Just Move On and Meet with Blackie and Sporttie

although is really sad

but if better than let you all suffering at here
take good care of yourself there..
Miss & Love you all  ♥

Love Aunt 

Goodbye Blackie T-T

can't believe that 

this post and the previous post 

are writing about the same thing

last month was Sporttie

and now is Blackie

we bring it to the doctor at the previous night

though that the injection that given may help

but at last

it was not

and still Blackie goes

maybe is better for him 

maybe...

when he was just join us this family... ♥

cute little one :) ♥

learn to sit properly :]

 

had their full month celebration

Rest in Peace Balckie

we gona miss you a lot

remember find Sporttie so that you both have partner

at least you see the world

at least you see me

gotta miss you much from now

guide us always together with Sporttie

Love you little one

forever and never last ♥

Love Aunt..

Goodbye Sporttie :'(

 this is really a sad post for me

8th June 2012

10:44pm

Sporttie leave us in sudden

although i know that it may go anytime

but just didn't think of that it will go so fast

Sporttie

the smallest size among the puppies

the noisiest puppy among them

and also the most weak one among them

 Rest in Peace my baby

although you didn't open your eyes

but at least you came to this family

at least you are one of us

at least i can be with you for sometime

maybe is better for you to go somewhere out there

which is no suffer and pain

be happy and guide us in heaven the wonderland

bless your brothers and sister

and so your aunt uncle and granny

Love Always

i'm gona miss you hardly this time

Love Aunt..

Grandma & Mama's Day ♡

erm well...

this is a very very late post

is should be post 3 weeks ago

but due to my dear laziness and exam was around the corner on that time

so now only i post it :p

hmm hmm where should i start..

lets see...

oh okayy.. :D

i was having my exam before Mother's Day

and only end at the next day after Mother's Day

really damn "fish" it 

but still i'm going back home for celebration ^^

p/s: thanks to my dear lynlyn Cheah

that willing to back  my home with me

and yet she get a huge meal for free XD

we went for seafood for the Mother's Day celebration

and we choose.. TB ♥

let photos tell the story

...............................

Granny & Sis

Mum, Granny & Sis

take one :)

again take two :D

dishes that we had

we got 

- cheng cao sweet potato leaves -

- gong bou hear gor bak -

- ang fish -

- fried sotong -

- sha bou taufu -

- fried oats prawn -

- delicious satay -

satisfy much much ♥

Cake that we bought from Pg
damn nice.. likessss ♥

Mum & Granny 

heart heart ♥♥♥

Family Photo

thanks to lynn

but your skill still have to improve more XD

the children with Mum & Granny ♥♥♥

♥♥♥ Mum & Grany ♥♥♥

our photographer 

Lynn Lynn Cheah :D

That's all for that :]

Love You, Mum & Granny


and the next day.. Law Paper
i'm death with it...  aikss

助人为快乐之本

25.5.2012

星期日

下午大約兩點四十五分左右

我幫媽媽去繳交電費

因為那地方是少量泊車地區

所以要找到一個泊車的位子其實不容易

不過很開心的

我找到了 哈哈

而且如果慢一點的話

可能就沒位了

泊了車

就走著去繳電費

當我要過馬路時

突然有一輛車按喇叭

嚇到我一下

死鬼的

按喇叭按到那麼大聲幹嘛

神經病！

不過看看下

好像不對勁哦

按喇叭不需要那麼多次吧

原來

是有一輛 Kenari車頂在他的車子後面

過後我就去看看

Kenari 裏面坐著一位行動不方便的伯伯

還有一隻狗狗

可愛到！ XD
可是那辆车按喇叭那么多次了都还没有人出来

结果

我尽然

去敲敲 Kenari 的车镜

然后问那个伯伯我可以帮他移车吗

* 真的没想过我会那么勇敢的去帮助一个陌生人 *

伯伯应该也知道我不是坏人

* 我本来就不是！！！ *

他也允许我帮他
真的沒想到他盡然允許我幫他




每一次幫了一個人後
我就會特別的開心
雖然我的學業不好
但至少我的道德不差
哈哈
大家要多多幫助人哦
助人為快樂之本
幫了人不但他人快樂
自己也會快樂


* 感謝主我還有一顆善良的心  :D *

is it unfair to me..?

it was Mother's Day..

although the next day i'm still having my exam

but i still remain to back home and celebrate with mum and family

firstly thanks to the dear friend -Mad Cheah-

that willing to back home with me

* cause after celebrate we still have to continue do our revision *

Mother's Day post i will be continue it with the next post

this post will be writing about me

i feel it is unfair to me

this is your work

you suppose have to do it your own

but you asked me to help

and don't even accept my idea

if you think that your idea is great

why don't you do it yourself?

i shouldn't agree to help you
why can't you accept the way i think


sometimes i really feel that is it so UNFAIR
you are the one who asking for help
but until the end
seems like i'm the one who asking for
tired of it
this is not the first time


i hope it won't happen again..
please don't happen again
- suffering with this feel!  :'( -

烂透了

陈盈肄!!!
你很烂啊！

简直就是又懒又烂啊!!!

>~

now i'm having my Semester 6 final

through this final

i feel that i'm getting worse and worse

i'm lazy being lazy and don't care about my study :/

i went to pg at 4th May and the 1st paper was at 7th May
and until 6th May only i start doing my revision

the next paper was the next day

but due to our CW marks is low

so we direct get barred fro the exam

and i have to pay total rm295 for it to resit the exam

is just so oh my golden fishiee  >~<

the 3rd paper held on 10th May

but still i have totally no study mood

but was like semester break mood

but still thanks God i got friend to be my reminder

keep asking me to study 

and at last i feel she is annoying

so i study for that subject earlier

thanks for that ANNOYING  :]

the coming subject is LAW paper

damn.. i hate this subject so much..

but what to do...

haizz... :'(
till now 

i still can't remember anything of it

i'm scare

i'm start to worry

but what to do...

study for it but get nothing

hopefully tomorrow's study mood will be better :/

please let me pass all these subjects...

i don't want to resit more..

so expensive...!!!  >~

money less aaaaaaarhh..!!

- End  T^T -

I'll Remember You

it has been so long sine you have gone

i hope that things could be turning backward

hoping they will never change

cause what we had is can't be replaced

Don't let our memories fade away

keep you in my heart for always

you made me realize

that i can do almost anything with you by my side

and reminds me

you were always stood right by me

through all the pain and tears

i'll remember you

and yet that's forever true

now i know you're the one that i always miss

never though it would feel like this

and you're always be there for me

no matter what i've go through

in my heart 

you'll always here

your heart are always here with me

anytime and anywhere

i promise you

i won't forget the time we shared

you will always be the sun in my sky

maybe this is the fate

but i'm sure

we'll meet back again someday

even though now we are separated

when i need you

i know you are always there for me

i know you'll follow me 

i know you will guide me through

don't ever let me forget everything about you

cause you are the one that i should remember in my life

i'll remember you, daddy

i will and forever i do

i miss you daddy

i miss you being around

i miss when you hugged me

i miss you smell

i miss your kisses on my cheek

i miss seeing you and mummy together

i miss you so much   :'(

- how terrible it is to love something that death can touch -

Breakfast Farewell

hmm..
i feel sad when i thinking to write this post
is a farewell for our youth club teacher
she going to Labuan soon :'(
somewhere in an island around Sabah
haiz... gona miss you badly la... :'(
due to her time and schedule was so pack 
she suggest us to date her on 29th April Morning
so we decided to have Breakfast and Farewell with her

this is she - teacher Jiajie

she been serving in church's youth ministry for few years

and she guide us all the way long

but now we have to separate with her

due to her work

they gona send her to Labuan 

don't talk about the sad things

although gona separate 

but we still can keep contact by using fb or else right

cheer cheer!!! :']

- PANCAKE -

wulala

i love pancake much much

bahahhaha!!!! XD

teacher & Dr. Chong :]

* one of the doctor in our church :3 *

having meals prayer before we eat our breakfast

- sorry that i was not concentrate with the prayer :/ -

 these are what we ate for our breakfast

funny and happy things happen on that day

suppose

we just bought 2 Box A breakfast set

but at the end we get 3 Box A breakfast with 2 Box A breakfast's price

we were so happy and excited  XD

so five of us ate:

6 pieces Hotcakes

6 Hash browns

3 Big Breakfast

2 Chicken Muffin

1 Sausage McMuffin with Egg 

3 cup of Coffee (not include refill)

2 cup of Milo

1 large Coke (not include refill)

we were full like....... 

you know what i mean :p

after that we chichat for many things 

here's our photo :]

i love my chin so muchiee  >-<~

this is also one of my teacher 

but she's not going to fly la..

i take her photo cause we are planning a surprise for teacher Jiajie

- you will know the surprise when that time comes -

after that we say goodbye and went home

on the same day

mum was decide to go Queensbay mall

i dislike Queensbay mall

feel like nothing inside

but she change her plan

and went BM for bakery class 

and drop my 2 little brothers at home

how pity they are :/

but both of them were follow me and big sis to penang

on the way to Penang

the purpose we go Penang is to send flower for someone

just that -.-"

but nevermind we went to the XXL shop for window shopping :x

cause nothing looks nice when i dress on :/

after that we went for Moo Cow

oh i love it!!! 

wee wang wang wee wang wang~  XD

we bought 2 cups of Moo Cow

enjoy much much!!! ^-^

I love Moo Cow.. Mooooooooo   

bahahaha!!! XD

i took a lot of it's tissue

heeeee...

i deserve to take it 

cause i bought 2 cups ;p

3 of them took McDonald for lunch..

and i just grab some from them :D

and then we go back to Butterworth

but still not going home

we went to Megamall

shopping again 

pity my 2 brothers

cause we just go in female's shop XD

and i bough something :3

tadaaa... heeee  ^-^

i love it muchieeee~ heee
60% discount for this
wahahahaha!!!!!!  XD
and then we go home and blablabla (just something i always do on saturday night)


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Labour Day Post in process  :x